“Tunde I’m two weeks late, I’m scared” I informed
“Pamilerin you can’t be pregnant, we always use
protection except for few times that we got carried
“Those few times are enough to get me pregnant”
“I think you should get tested first before jumping
into conclusion” he said
“I will get a pregnancy test strip from the pharmacy
on my way back from school” I said as I dressed up
preparing for lectures.
Later in the day, we both came back from school,
and I prepared dinner and dished it on a breakable
plate. We do eat together.
“Babe you are not eating, you are just staring at the
food” he said looking directly into my eyes.
“How will I eat, I’ve bought the pregnancy test strip
and I don’t know what the result will say. Am
“Just calm down, let’s see the result first”
“Tunde what if I’m pregnant?”
“When will you have the test?” he asked
“First thing tomorrow morning”
“Just calm down”
“You are just saying I should calm down, you are a
man it won’t affect you”
“You think it won’t affect me? Let’s just wait till
tomorrow, now eat your food”
“I’ve lost my appetite” I stood up and sat on the bed.
“You know starving yourself won’t solve the
problem. I’ll cover the food, you can eat when you
regain your appetite”
I laid on the bed to sleep but I couldn’t sleep all
through the night. I thought of my life and my future.
I come from a godly home where my parents did
their best in raising godly children. But see what
love made me do.
I knew it everyday that what I’m doing was wrong,
it’s against my belief. I never intended to have sex
in my relationship not to talk of being a live-in-girlfriend.
I did all this for the sake of love, the pressure was
much from Tunde that I had to succumb. Fine
staying together makes us bond well but I wonder
what we stand to gain aside from the bonding and
regular sex but see where it landed me.
I am pregnant, am very sure of that, I’ve never been
this late since I started menstruating, worst is
between two or three days, then I’ll see my period”
While I was still thinking about the mess I got
myself into, I felt his hand on my body because I
was backing him so I didn’t see him, he was trying
to get me aroused.
“Tunde take your hands off me this minute” I said
“Babe I’m just trying to help ease your worries”
“By having sex with me? I doubt if you are bothered
“Off course I am, I just want to….
“Do you even love me, because if you do you won’t
be thinking about sex right now”
“I cant believe you just said that, you know I love
“Which am beginning to doubt, just let me be,
“I’m very sorry my love, I thought it will help. Stop
giving yourself headache we are not even sure yet”
“I get it, it’s my body not yours and I know if
something it’s not right”
I took one of the pillows, stood up from the bed and
laid on the rug.
“Please come back to bed Pamilerin, I won’t touch
you” he pleaded.
I pretended as if I did not hear him. I just laid there
on the rug thinking about what the test result will